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|Bio||I am Amanda's mom. I wish that I could have been there for when she gave her testimony. When she was born I gave her back to God and never took her back. I love Mandy (that is what I call her)very much and God has done so many good and wonderful thing with her. She is truly Gods child and am proud that she is my daughter.
I am self have had a ruff life growing up. No it had nothing to do with My mother or Dad. But At the young age of 7-8 My grandfather sexually abused me. He would make me do thinks to him. I was told not to tell for I would get in trouble. Then when I was 12-13 One of my mother's family member also sexually abused me. I would throw a fit when I had to go see them. Then my family moved to Fl. It wasn't 2-3 months after we moved there a Cop that lived down the street raped me. I will never for get it. And the same thing was told to me. Don't tell I am a cop they would not believe you and you will be the one in trouble. Then when I got to high school I got into dope. I didn't take it for very long maybe 6 months. But I thought it would take the pain away. But I got into trouble. I skipped school and went to the beach. God was working on me that day. There was a car full of people and there was some that were on the hood of the car. The drive could not see well. Well there was only one palm tree there and we hit it. I hit the Merow and cut above my eye. Well from that day I prayed to God to help me. He did in so many ways. But then I would fall away from him again. When I turned 16 I got drunk that night. Mom and Dad yelled at me but they didn't really punish me. That night was the worse ever. I was so sick and the bed was spinning and I would call out to my mom and she came in and said you did this on your own now live with it. I am not telling this for any one to laugh for it wasn't funny. But earlier that night I had a date and my dad said no after my mom said I could go. But mom was at work. I Told me Dad to go to H---- and he took the broom and broke it 2 times over my back. But when mom got home She talked to me and said I did wrong to what I said. And I was wrong. But I got to go out.Then I meet Amanda's Dad. I was 17 when we got married. We moved to NC and that is when her Dad first cheated on me. I ran to my uncle and he asked me if I wanted to go back home. I told him no that I had to make it work. So my aunt talked to him and told him to stop or I would leave. After that things seem to be fine. Then we had Mandy about 21/2 years later. Her Dad went in the USAF. Then Her sister Heather came 3 1/2 years later. To tell the truth I was afraid to have any more kids in fear something would be wrong with them. But she was fine. Then He got orders for over seas for a year. A month after he left I found out I was going to have Baby#3 I had her July He left in Dec.Well he came home on leave for 2 weeks and then he flew back by the Air force. They call it a jump flight. Then he was done and came back home and pick I and the kids up to move to Co. That is where we started having trouble.He had a friend to come and visit us that he was over seas with. He wasn't married and I know why now. But when Mandy's dad went to work so did he.He told me about Mandy's dad Girlfriend and how he didn't go straight back after he left from leave to see his new daughter. He and his GF meet in Japan for a week. He had pic of the 2 and all. Then the so called friend tried to get me to go to bed with him. I was so mad I made him leave till Mandy's dad got home and I told him every thing that man told me. Mandy's dad made that so called friend leave and to never come back ever again. We never heard from him again. But that is when we started to have a lot of trouble in the marriage.I hated for what he did to me. I couldn't stand for him to touch me. That is when he started to just Rape me. It went on for years and years. I never told any one. Why cause I was 17 when I got married and I had to stay in it no matter what he did to me.I lied to him and told him I slept with someone and I may be having a baby by that man. No it wasn't true I never cheated on him. I could have but it was wrong. I would pray so hard at times to God for it to stop. Then we moved to Mexico Beach Fl. Nothing changed. I started going fishing and that was my outlet.We then moved on base housing. I would still go fishing as much as I could.Then one night I was fishing and there was a club next To where I fished. I went over to get a coke. I meet Nancy. So I asked Mandy's dad to take me there. He did but I got raped again that night. But I keep going. I would help out cooking and doing fish tournaments and Weddings and party's. When I did all this you got free drinks. I started drinking every night but Monday and Tuesday. I would party and party as much as I could. I did this for 2 years. Then I just quit when Mandy's dad got out of the USAF and we moved to NC. But the raping never quit. It was so bad to be pin down and do things that wasn't right. I couldn't move cause the way he pin me down.We always had money trouble. I know I didn't help much there. That was just as much as my fault as his. Then we really got in a bad mess and I turned in my car cause I couldn't pay for it. He couldn't make rent. So I took the kids and moved to the farm. I thought to myself I will be safe till he comes home on the week-ends. I got a job at the old country store down the street.After years of praying to God I thought he answered my prayers. But week-end after-end go worse and worse. Then my worse fear he got a job here. It never stooped till one night after he tore my panties off like he had done many time before. I told him I wanted him out I was done I would not be raped again.of coarse he didn't leave but he didn't bother me again. He begged me to not leave he wouldn't do it again. But I didn't buy it. So I had to move out of my own family house while he got to stay in the house with my mom and dad. I was the bad one. I knew that would happen if I left. That is why I never did before that night. My boss at work asked me to go to bingo with her and I did. and I thought I had made some friends but turned out I was just someone to keep their husband busy while she dated this guy. Well before long everyone around had me going out with this guy and it wasn't me. So here I go again. Around and around it went. I would pray so hard that my mom and dad would lesson to me and believe me and not Mandy's dad and the people around where we live.I just gave up. I thought God hated me I know I wasn't the best person. I had done bad things in my life. But I gave up I didn't think God loved me. April 1 st This guy the other girl was going out with asked me if I would go to the April fools dance with him. I thought it was a joke. I said to him so you can dance with her and be with her. No thank you I am not falling for that April fools joke. He said No really just you and I. I thought about it and I said well they have us together may as well go. I had a really good time that night. it was the first time in a long time I felt safe. After that night he told the other lady to go back with her husband. He didn't want to do it any more. then we would talk on the phone and then went out to dances. Didn't drink either. Then we dated for some time and then we moved in with each other. We got married 4 years after I left Mandy's dad. One month and one day My hubby got hurt really bad. They flew him to Pitt. he was in a coma for about a week. That night he got hurt I prayed so hard to God. I told God I would take my hubby back any way as long as he gave him back to me and not take him yet. I also prayed for God to forgive me for all my sins. From that night on I had God in my life. Hubby got better but it was a up hill climb. We both gave our selfs to God and went to church. We would go every Sunday. Then trouble started in the church. I didn't think that this was right and we have found ourself not going but we still love our God and Lord. I still find myself thinking he hates me. But that is the devil working on me. I do love my Lord and I do pray every night for everyone. Am I a good person no but I try so hard to be. I love my kids and my Gran kids and my hubby so very much. But most of all I love my Lord that has help me along the rugged path even when I didn't know he was there and I just didn't see. Now I do see. Are thing easy now no But I know the lord forgave me for my sins and will never stop loving me. I pray that he will heal me and I will be up and going. and the lord will somehow help in getting us a new roof. I don't know when but he said ask and you will receive.